This is what happens when the baby's go to sleep...

... and we have been cooped up for too long, and someone decides tequila shots are a good idea LOL!

Why does it have to be so hard?

Why does this whole buying a house business have to be so dang hard. I am so sick of stressing over it. Not only is building the house stressful in itself, but then getting the financing for it is a whole other story. We are going for a USDA loan and have hit bumps in the road the whole time. We really want to go this route because it makes our payment considerably cheaper, can we say no PMI (private mortgage insurance)! We have had issues with them not wanting to count Greg's bonus's as income (which hopefully are now resolved?), we have to wait 20 BUSINESS days (so basically 4 weeks) after we get the appraisal (which has not happened yet) to close because the USDA office is so behind, and now they want Greg to have one point higher on his credit score for their automatic underwriting system. Yes ONE point, seriously. I am beyond frustrated. So now we are trying to get incorrect information on Greg's credit report fixed, which takes time. Time that we can't afford to waste. We now have to have the company send a letter stating the changes and then PAY (yes you read correctly... PAY) to get the credit bureaus to update it. I am beyond frustrated. I swear it just get's more and more ridiculous as we go. At this point it looks like it may now be January before we get to move in, and we will have wasted thousands of dollars paying for the delay of closing. I'm just so worn out by this all. I just want to give up. Can things ever just go smoothly? Umm nope, not for Greg and I at least.

Never has.

Yep, that is all. Vent DONE.

"Someone took the Lorax away."

Yep it's that time again. Video update!!

Aubrey reading "The Lorax" to Greyson.

 

 Aubrey singing, "My body is amazing" (Baby Signing Time)...

My chatty little passenger...

Trying to roll?!

Greyson LOVES being on his tummy. He actually started to try to roll from his back to belly, Aubrey got a little impatient so she helped him the rest of the way!

Some old, some new!

After such a serious post, I decided to lighten it up! So I was just cleaning out my Iphone, and as I was looking through all the pic on my phone I realized I had forgotten about some of them. So here are a bunch for you all, some you haven't seen and some you may have... but I am sure you don't mind since I know you all love my obsessive picture taking!

"Hmm, do you think I'll fit?"

Taking pictures of herself!

She loves him.

"Look how tall my tower is Mama!"

Yoga time!

"Yoga like Grandma."

Papa's shoes!

"Help ME!"

Love...

Baby...

Smiles!

Organized Religion.

Growing up we never took part in organized religion, apart from the random Sunday's I went with friend's families. My Mom always talked to my siblings and I about God and how we should have a relationship with Him and that going to Church doesn't make you closer to God or make you a good person all of that was up to us. I have always loved the way she looks at things, and I truly believe that it is very true, to an extent.

So why did my parents not have us participate in organized religion? Well my parents are not the same religion and they didn't want to push a specific religion on us. I really appreciated it growing up, but now that I have kids of my own I feel a little lost.

My sister went through a really rough patch in her life and I feel like maybe if we had had a "Church family" or someone else that she could turn to to talk to that maybe she wouldn't have felt the need to do some of the things she did and maybe would of taken advice from someone else since she wouldn't take her families. That maybe if she had had a closer relationship with God or known more about God that it would of helped her. This may or may not be the case, I could be completely wrong. I just feel like maybe if she hadn't felt so alone that maybe she would of been a stronger more confident person.

The reason I think about this more now is because I now have children of my own and we live in a time where there is so much bad in the world, I just want to expose them to as much good as I can and for them to know they always have God to turn to. So now I find myself trying to figure out where I/we belong. I feel so lost. It's just so far out of my comfort zone. I don't know much about religion or the Bible. I feel behind and when I go to a church I don't feel like I belong. I just don't feel comfortable, it really just makes me feel inadequate. I want so much to know more but I don't want to feel dumb or out of place in the process. I know that sounds crazy, but I have always had an issue about feeling dumb or asking for help. My parents would always ask me why I was so scared of feeling stupid or unintelligent, or why I felt like I wasn't smart enough. If you knew my older brother and younger brother you would understand, they were beyond smart and I always felt like I just didn't measure up. Anyways my point is, organized religion kind of brings me back to those childhood insecurities.

I just wish I knew more, or really anything at all. I have always prayed and have always tried to have a relationship with God, but not knowing much about the Bible now makes me feel like I don't have a "real" relationship with Him because I don't know enough to.

I just want to find somewhere I feel comfortable enough to learn and to bring my kids. I know it's all my own issues. It's just hard to be in a room full of people that know what is going on and you are the only one who is clueless. I really want to find a place for our family, where my kids will grow up and learn about God. :/

House Updates!

Everything is uncovered and cleaned!

Trying to get more of the flooring in the pic! I LOVE IT!

They painted up in the coffered ceiling. They still have another coat of paint to go. It is less yellow in person, more tan!

Fridge is in!

Island uncovered! Love how big it is!

Cooktop uncovered!

Carpets in!

Hard to get a pic of the whole bathroom since it kind of curves around the master.

Seamless glass is in!

Hallway to the kids rooms! Ignore all the blue tape that was us marking imperfections that need fixed.

Hallway to the playroom!