Friday, May 31, 2013

A Special Bond.

I don't know what else to call it, other than a "special bond". I feel like Aubrey and my Mom are inseparable when they are together. It's not that my Mom favors her or anything like that. It is more like Aubrey favors her. Even over her me, her own Mama. It has been this way from the moment she was born. Well not the actual moment, but you know what I mean. I have previously mentioned (many times, I'm sure) how Aubrey was a bit of a crier when she was a newborn. The only two people she would allow to hold her without screaming bloody murder, was me and my Mom. Not even Greg made it onto her very short list of people she liked. (Shhh... don't tell him I said that.) An example of how much Aubrey loves her Grandmas... Greg and I went on a cruise before Addi was born and my parents watched Aubrey while we were gone. When we got back I went to pick Aubrey up the second we returned. I had missed her terribly. I remember this part like it was yesterday. I got to my parents house and my Mom met me outside, I put my arms out for Aubrey and she clung to my Mom screaming. She did NOT want to come to me. I was really heartbroken. How had she not missed me? I couldn't pry Aubrey off her. Eventually my Mom had to just put her in her car seat and we left. Aubrey cried the ENTIRE way home (an hour drive). It took her half a day to like me again.

Aubrey has always just adored my Mom, and my Mom truly adores her just as much. They talk daily. Facetime to be exact, because going a day without "seeing" Grandma is NOT and option. When my parents go away on vacation she asks everyday when Grandma will be back. My Mom also has such a soft spot for Aubrey too. She will do anything for that little girl. Not that she wouldn't for any other Grandchild, but it's just different. They are like kindred spirits or something. There is just no good way to describe it. They just have a "special bond".

What have we been up to? (Video Update).

Tuesday, May 28, 2013


As Addi's Birthday approaches I can't help but think about Charlie. It's so hard not to. It's hard not to feel guilt. The day I was welcoming my baby into the world, a friend was losing hers. Now two years have gone by, but it still feels like yesterday.

I spent a long time looking for a card to send this year, and none of them were good enough. I sat down and wrote what I wanted to say, but it also wasn't good enough. I just can't seem to put into words how I feel, how I think of him often, how every time I do my heart breaks all over again. I wish I had the words to make her understand just how amazing I thought Charlie was, how sweet, caring, and kind he was. How I still remember him playing in the water giggling and swimming like a fish. I still remember him running around my house laughing and playing and having a blast.

I just can't find the right words. Words that really convey how much I think of him and pray for them. Words that don't sound forced or fake and are eloquently put. Words that will make them feel better, that will make them get how much Charlie touched everyone's lives.

After I wrote in the card I had settled for, I decided to look for another and to start again. Then tonight while I lay in bed I realized I don't think I will find the "right" words, because there are none. All I can do is let her know that although I may not have gone through what she has gone through, and I may not know exactly how that feels, I still care a whole awful lot and I still think about Charlie all the time. So I am scratching the card idea. Most of what I wrote in the card did not come out the way I had wanted, except for one part:

"I just want you to know no matter how many seconds, how many minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, or even years go by I will never forget him."

I will never forget him, and I know that anyone who's had the pleasure of getting to know him feels the same.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

I made it!

By this time with each of my girls I was pregnant again. I had a 7 month old the first time I found out I was pregnant again, and a 6 month old the second time I found out I was pregnant again. I feel like I have accomplished something just by making it past that with Greyson! He is now 8 months and I am happy to say I am NOT pregnant! WOOO HOOO! I know it sounds crazy that I am so overly excited about this, but I feel like I have crossed a threshold, I have made it longer than I ever have not being pregnant (since starting to have kids). Even though I have an IUD, I had this huge fear that I would somehow be SO fertile that not even birth control could stop it from happening. I mean going from being told we would never conceive naturally to banging out kids every 15-16 months can scare a person into not believing a darn thing. 

So I haven't really updated you all on how having three kids 3 and under (still miss saying "under 3") is going. It is going well so far, but I fear the worst is yet to come. Greyson is an AWESOME baby, for those who have met him you know what I am talking about. He is just sweet, laid back, a go with the flow type. Those were all words I used to describe Addi too before she was mobile. Let me point out though Addi had ALREADY been mobile for a month or two by this point. So the fact that he is very content not crawling gives me hope that maybe he will stay sweet and calm. Aubrey never had the desire to move, she loved just sitting and playing all day, which is similar to Greyson will a little more rolling across the room thrown in. I really believe he may be a mix of the two girls, which would be fantastic! So yeah. Back to my point. Life with three babies hasn't been too hard, yet. I am waiting for it. You may not see me for a while if it does get as crazy as I suspect it might. I might be in a padded room with a straight jacket on, sitting in a corner rocking back and forth mumbling to myself . I can just see it now. Greg has already called it. So I am pretty sure that is where I am headed. LOL!

For now though, I am loving having three, I am loving the craziness (most times), and I just adore all my babies. I mean who wouldn't, look at these adorable kiddos...

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Its about time...

...that I get back to posting, has it really been over two weeks? Yikes!  I have been really busy and have been wanting to post for some time now. I had all these topics that I wanted to write about but with my "Mom brain" I have now completely forgotten them all. So I am just going to post about the one thing that sticks out in my mind...

I WON a stroller! Not just any stroller, a Bob Revolution jogging stroller. It was actually the first stroller I had ever owned and my absolute FAVORITE. I have missed Bob since the second I sold it, so how crazy that I won one and now have Bob back in my life. Yes I like to refer to my stroller as Bob, not "my Bob", not "a Bob". Nope! Just Bob. No other stroller I have had, handles as nicely or as smoothly and is great for just about anything you throw it's way. I would take it shopping, jogging, walking, to the park, the zoo, the beach, on trails... you name it I took it there and zipped around with it like it was nothing!

Oh Bob, how I have missed you.

As excited as I was to win it, there was someone who was even MORE excited. I swear she must of remembered Bob from when she was an itty bitty baby...

A big thanks to Jacksonville Running Company (it's actually where my husband has gotten most of his running shoes from, they help you find the exact right pair for your feet and for your running style, Greg has wide feet and he puts a lot of pressure in the inside of them when he runs, he would end up getting shin splints and had knee problems before going there to get the correct shoes, so AWESOME!) and Jacksonville's Mom's Blog for the amazing stroller! We truly appreciate it! :)

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Video Updates!

Working off the chunk!

My serious face. 
Love me some Katie! 

Just for you Em! (Well and for anyone else who wants to take a peek!)

As requested here are some updated pics of the house...

I am not all that happy with the entry yet, it's definitely a work in progress. I am on the hunt for some nicer pieces to put there! 
Still haven't gotten Greg to hang the mirror. 

I need to get something to go in the large vase. I am holding off a bit because I know it will just draw the kids to it more. Right now they just ignore it! :)
New table to match the stools! 
Not sure I like the coral touches. I am having a hard time with them. I spent a lot of money on coral stuff so that is the main reason they are staying lol!